Friendship

INCESSANCYLOVE

5.6.08 || Thursday, June 05, 2008

2 JUNE
case over (:
why are you avoiding me ?
you said it's cos you are pressured , cos i got to know th steps faster thn you ? you call that an explanation ? no , tht's an excuse. you had been staying with th other dancers lately, you dont give a damn to whr i was . in th past , wht will you do ? before any music is played out , you'll come and find me to stand beside you. now ? heh! , no more. i dont feel evtremely angry on this , but th thing is that why are you walking that far away from me ? wht have i done wrong ? you mean just because of yourself you make me suffer by not having anybody to tag along in dance? that's unfair to me. you never think and put yourself in my shoe before you do anything. you alr admitted that you are avoiding me indirectly but obvious in our messages . wht have you got to say ? nothing. who says i'm th one who decided on this. who says i dont want to end it. WHO? no one , you jump into conclusion . you said you tried all your best to try to talk to me , but did you? i dont see any . you can just simply ask me to eat with you and angie , i dont mind , or you can join me in whr i'm sitting. but wht did you do ? you just sit with angie at another corner . you mean that's called th initaitive you took to be closer to me ? we didnt even stood face to face , neither did i look at you once, cus it'll just make me cry . if tht's th case , thn how possible do you think i can dao you ? you see , another thing tht you have jumped into conclusion . wht if i did th same thing to you ? i ignore you , i didnt ask you or talk to you that much , i dont accompany you to even places like General Office , and most of all , i admitted that i AM avoiding you in th messages indirectly . how will you feel ? a friemd that is so close , so dear to me actually avoided me one day . dont you know how much it has hurt me ? about th going to reena's hse matter . you said angie msged me , i did not reply. but i told you she didnt msg me at all . thn you said " but angie said she did ." i repeat myself and said " she did not " . thn you said " huh , but she said she did lehs ". so wht as tht . different ppl have different perspective. to me , these sentences made me thinks that you are insisting tht angie did msg me . this is wht I think . but wht now ? you said you didnt side her , yes you didnt . i didnt say you did. i was merely just saying , tht th way you type th sentences makes me thinks tht way . compare thm . thr's a huge gap in between. th difference is so obvious. like how i started telling you all these , i started by saying , " i feel that as friends , we should sometinmes tell each other of wht we feel and think ." i didnt treat this as an argument at all . you do . seriously i dont . is just a talk , a conversation , one tht maybe affects our mood but still, it's not an argument . whn did i ever say tht " hey ! i wna argue now !" whn ? i didnt , & i dont want . but wht now , you said i dont want to stop it . and tht your mother asked you to give up . thn let me tell you wht my mother told me . she's totally different from your mum . before telling you all these, i had always been teliing my mum this matter . and she said th best methodlogy is to tell you my problems on you . i followed wht she said , and this is wht i got . if i had known this will happen , i rather shut my mouth and bottle up in me . i showed my mum our msges , and she said , if w are continuin to be like this , thn forget it . firget it if this friendship is so hard to bond back . that's a test of friendship . tru friends will come across such problems. because we are straigtforward , because we know each other well . that's friends. since you said i can catch up fast in dance and you cnt , thn why dont you approach me and let us learn together ? tht'll be much mre faster and btr , isnt it ? i'm glad tt things are over now , but i just said it out cus i want to let you and others , including myself to get this , that not all quarrels are signs of breaking or sth bad . it can be sth good , like this , we know each other's problems . we solved it , and thn we are back up again . so just bear in mind tht not all quarrels or arguments carry bad consequences , they are just tests given by God.