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byebye musical 2008

2.7.08 || Wednesday, July 02, 2008

musical 2008 - closed ):

ytd's th actual performance. one day only for this year. no more. hope you guys did enjoy ;D tiring yet fun . ppl cried after musical . maybe cus' it's their last performance alr . reena and ying min cried. haiyo .. matinee show's seat arent full . so th feeling isnt tht nervous . but th seats for th night show are FULL . went out for th first song , first thing " WAH , sooo many ppl , dead ._. " HAHAS . thn prepare prepare. needa dance so abit scared scared , dont know for why. yahs , tht's about tht. this musical wasnt done perfectly good , we all know tht , as wht Mr Chen said before th night show , just give our best, though we will not perform to the expectation he gave. so tht's tht. haiys . miss it . blahs. nvm , it's over . no more D:

anyway , finale, i got no mood, totally. cus something happened. THT PERSON, by doing so, i dont think i offended anyone, neither do i think i disrespected th seniors. as wht th seniors told us before, we shouldn't always rely on thm for such chnges. we needa make self decisions at times. you said you can think of how ugly th whole dance willl be if we chnge, thn let me say out something. before i even wanted or tell everybody[ th girl role] to chnge, they gave me responses like" huh? need to go down de meh? i dont know, everytime never, i half stand only, if not i'll fall. no space" their response. if tht's th case, thn i strongly agree to chnge. like wht we wanted, we want everyone to be coordinated, to have our steps standardize. i'm doing so. and i dont hink tht'll be ugly, like wht you said. th real ugly scene will be whn thr are some half standing, some gg all down , some falling , like wht i did in th afternoon. would you want to continue th steps whn you know you'll fall in one of th shows you gave on stage for th next show? i jooly well know you wouldnt want to . you chnged th steps as well, you chnged certain stpes. you asked xiaofei tcher tht th move will look nicer if it's chnged to th one you suggested. by asking th tcher to chnge this part of her cheography , dont you think you did even worse, by disrespecting th cheographer's cheography? you get to ask her th chnge, cus she was thr. but wht about this?

we got no seniors with us at tht point of time, and th only time senior Priscilla appears if whn she asked us to go get ready on backstage. i dont think i'm disprespecting th seniors. cus we are th one whi is dancing, we are th one who should feel comfortable for th stpes we showed , but of course, th steps we chnge cannot be totally different from its origin. we didnt chnge th steps, we chnged th height level.

why must you cry without firstly telling us how you feel? why didnt you tell us you think it'll be ugly? you didnt tell us, neither did you talk to us about this. we knew this cus ying min told us. why dont you talk to us nicely or just pull us aside, or stop us from speaking to th
sec ones? why didnt you even tried to tell us tht you
dont want th chnge? i think you should rly explain why you didnt do so,before th cry.

i ASSUME you cried becus things are not going in th way you wanted, and we insisted in chnging. if tht's th case, should i also cry whn senior Priscilla said not to chnge? cus things arent going in th way i wanted? no, i didnt. cus to ME, if you starts crying, you admit defeat .

i know senior Priscilla will go to your side , for sure. by saying this, i also wanted to let her know tht, she only asked why you cried, and therfore things chnged in th way you wanted, she didnt even ask me why would i want to chnge it. did she ask ? no , she didnt. she simply gave a decision, a decision where she saw a dancer who is crying for th chnge of th height level of a dance step whn it doesnt even affects her , neither will it affects th whole outlook of th dance performance. if you think it will, thn i must rly agree and say we must be looking real super ugly for th finale in th afternoon show cus all are at different levels and i almost fell , yeah?

you arent th only one who got no mood for th finale, me too. if you could just simply understand th difficulty we all are having and th risk i am putting , thn things might turn out in a better way.
sry to say i cnt give in to you , cus if i do , i might just fall off th stage or do something different from th rest if i couldnt hold on to my balance , which is wht happened in th afternoon one, nobody wants thmself to look ugly on stage, including me and you.
you want th dance to look nice, so do i.
pls bear tht in mind,tht chnges are made to make thing go btr, if not why th chnge.

kindly understand th situations you will get in th future, lest you'll upset everybody.

& one more thing , i think you somehow offended me by saying i should know tht i;m not doing so,for th welfare of th dance. wht's tht suppose to mean?

i also think by wanting to keep th original steps, you should know tht
you are not doing this for th welfare of th dance. cus you nva put yourself in our shoes. and one more thing ,i;m saying all these on behalf of those who wanted it to chnge. if you said i'm not doing this for welfare of dance, thn i/we wouldnt even care and wouldnt even want to help chnge it for th btr in th first place. and i think we/ i gave th right attitude , for not always relying on seniors. we are taught to be independent , and make self-decisions in school. i;m just making use of wht i learnt.

and i think i used it at th right time(: i dont think this affects th seniors, in wht way did it link? if my juniors did th same thing by making chnges in th future without seniors with thm, i wont get angry, i'll be happy to see thm getting in use of making self-decisions, it's a good sign to me. we'll leave th school one day , and it'll be their turn to be in charge of th rest.

i/we didnt chnge th whole dance, we chnge tht part of it. by standardizing it, ppl wouldnt know tht's a last minute chnge. furthermore, i'm sure tht they wont go down , cus sec ones alr said during performance and trainings they didnt go down and they cnt manage to get down on stage for th afternnon show.
we cnt train tht part in th holding room anyway, th flooring is diff.
so i got to make th chnge , immediately. i;m sure we'll do it properly, this is much more easier thn th original ,
and i repeat , before th ask for chnge, ppl alr chnged thm thmeselves.

i would rly appreciate if you could just further define or rather , elaborate th sentence :

" and it's simply UNFAIR for th senior"

i would like to know th unfairness we've gave to seniors ,& i would like to apologise to thm (: i will be glad if you could just give me further explanations to this sentence where i couldnt find a link to this matter in any ways :] thanks.

thanks xuan ming ,jaslyn , chester , yong cheng for th

messages of encouragement (:

& we shall get ready for SYF now.