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I may not get married afterall when i grow up .
Cus , I find i rather hard to trust people now .
I'm not pin-pointing at anyone .
I'm just saying how i'm feeling .
Yeah , i just packed stuffs , ready to move them into lugagges again .

I have lost everything .
Lost a b-friend .
Lost my ' okay' standard in my studies .
Lost my ' not bad attendance in both CCA and SL .
Lost my beloved family .
Lost the warmth i used to have.
Lost this house .


& now i'm crying again.
I shall say out everything , whatever im thinking, whatever im feeling now .
so dont blame me , dont ask me .

Love
6th of every month had always been an exciting & meaningful day bcus a msg will come on 12 midngith which i savd every month and the movie that was going to be watched the following day. I cant say much bout this , and i dont want to.
But all i want to let it out is just this -
We may seem fine .
But I've always yearn for something btr.

Family
Almost every school holiday, we will go on a family trip .
Though I just came back from Aus , that wasnt considered as a family trip cus not 5 went .
And now , things got worse .
Family stuufs began popping out like nobody's business .
I will miss Daddy .

Friends
Cheerful , hyper i may seem in school
They were all forced actions .
If I were to saty unhappy and put on an upset look , ppl will start questioning .
I don want that.

Friends.
They do stay .
But bonds within change.
I have always placed my SEC 1 girl-friends as no. 1
At the very least , i still have them with me .
But now , they're gone .

Dance
Dance is what i'll do whenever i'm feeling low .
But I know I'm tired and i dont give as much concentration and determination during practices.
I tend to get stress out and give up .
I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO .

Me
Sometimes i just dont understand myself
I tend to throw temper at the wrong person.
And thn i go apologising non-stop like a fool cus of my stupid mistake.
But these aren't things I can control
I cried in the middle of the nightS sometimes ,
I dare not breathe a word.

I'm changing t control myself , cus I promised You.

I'm trying hard to stabilise myself between studies and dance.
Seriously, SL does not affect me much.
I know I can do it .
I just need chance , opportunities and time .

I do not know what to do ,
To get all of what I want.
I want someone there to hug me when i need one
I want someone there for me to accompany out for shopping and stuffs.
I want someone there to help me with my school work.
I want someone there to give me strong encouragements.
I want someone to make my life abit more colourful .
I want someone to fix a date for me to look forward to .
I want my life to be like this.


I've lost so many things.
Is it considered unfair to return me some?

Labels: Seven - A wonderful number in my history